Part 4: Things about Love and Relationships

So, I wanted to give it a shot. Everything might not end in a ‘forever’, but unless you give it a try you never know if there could be ‘a forever’.  For my date, I wore a pair of jeans with a lovely satin sleeveless top and mismatched accessories. Although, I kept modeling on dress after dress in my fashion paradise, I decided to keep it low-key. Ryan chose a nice, quiet restaurant as the venue. I parked my car and spotted him. He was smoking his third cigarette in a row to keep himself warm. Ryan noticed me getting out of my car and had this on-going smile as he walked towards me. Then the unexpected happens. He came up to me and kissed me. On my lips. You should have enough passion and courage to do your woman anywhere and everywhere without caring about other people around. And Ryan just proved it right! I was taken aback, confused and loved it all. We enjoyed the food, the wine and the spontaneous fun we shared. After a while, he shared a random thought. ‘Do you wanna go dancing with me?’ Ryan asked.  He knew the city and clubs around really well and I loved dancing. I instantly agreed. We picked up some common moves pretty quickly and the drinking-dancing combo is always lethal fun. There were quite a few of his female friends who came up to him trying to get close to him etc. But he always made it a point to introduce me to them. I still don’t know why. And they immediately kept a distance. Come on, its not even like I was his girlfriend u know. I used to and still keep telling him that its perfectly alright if any girl (even if its his ex) gets close or ask him for a dance. To me, as long as a man’s heart and mind is with me, nothing really matters. We didn’t know where all this was going but we wanted to see each other again. It was 1AM and I was nearly drunk. Drunk in the moment. He then walked me to my car kissed me again. Four drunken guys yelled out from a car ‘Take her home!’ We laughed and I left. It may not be the most spectacular date ever, but spectacular things happened after this date. 

We went on several dates later spending more and more time with just each other. Ryan’s unconditional love and trust right from the start was something I never saw in a man before. He is the greatest lover ever. Spending nights and weekends without him turned out nearly inevitable. It was just not the sex.“It's not who you want to spend Friday night with, its who you want to spend all day Saturday with.” a quote from the movie - Friends with Benefits was finally making sense to me. We never had even the slightest feeling of insecurity, suspicion, jealousy, feeling of losing each other at any time. That’s one of the USP’s of this relationship I felt. With all the men I was with, there was always some form of expectation, suspicion, false allegations and so much drama that I started to believe that may be all men and couples end up this way. But Ryan was evidently different. He hardly knew me but still trusted every breath of mine. I became his girl. I felt so proud of this identity. His clothes, cigarettes, liquor and other stuff slowly started piling up in my home. And we started living together but didn’t notice when it all began. I guess that’s how it happens everywhere. We were secure just being with each other. Neither of us believed in marriage but wouldn’t mind if we had to for the sake of society, family etc. Oh yes, he introduced me to his family. I neither spoke nor understood their native language. They still loved me. Ryan’s family said so many things that could only make me blush more. They felt that Ryan was happy in the true sense now amongst all the relationships and girls he had ever been with and only I am responsible for it. They were all so happy on what a beautiful girl he had chosen for himself. Ryan always held my hand no matter where we were. He just had to. He could never be away from me when he was with me. He was this amazing lover, a best friend in need, an innocent child holding me always, a real man confronting other men who tried anything nasty on his lady love. In short he was just everything. I loved all his shades, all his colors. 

The proposal….

Ryan proposed to me for love but it was not some one-knee-down formal sorts. We were at home listening to music. And he just broke down into tears thinking he can’t live without me no more. I didn’t have a clue on what was going on. With his head bent down and tears flowing from his eyes he uttered those three truly magical words. It’s very rare when a man cries. And when he does, he is damn serious about whatever it is. This had to be the most beautiful proposal ever. Unexpected, out of the blue, most natural, with a man’s head bowing down in front of his girl and the most genuine tears.. Need I say more? 

Then the lesbian encounter happens…

To be continued…